why do people pretend they understand you?

nobody knows what its like to be anybody else.  try as you might.

so listen.  just listen, becasue i dont want to tell you something so you can say “oh yes, i know exactly how you feel” becasue the truth is, you just dont.  YOU dont know exactly how I feel, ever.  and sometimes what you need is just to be heard.

that is the cure for almost anything.

and thats why a good friend is hard to find.  someone who does almost know what you feel.  someone who can almost step into your shoes.  someone you can always talk to, and know theyll listen.  and know they wont judge you.

and that. that is love.  ive just decided

i dont know what your definition is, but thats mine.

i love you

r.

so, if you read MLIA, you will know about the ongoing battle of the search engines. and today i decided to do a little research.  i searched the phrase “[engine] is” into all three most well known engines, replacing [engine] with the names of the three.  these are my findings/analysis.  (i would like to add a quick disclaimer that these are not the suggestions at top, but the ones i felt were best fitted to this expirement.)

lets get started!

i googled:

google is:watching you. this i found quite creepy.  another suggestion was google is scared of islam. and i felt like that was not a good move on googles part. because now everyone knows googles weakness.

yahoo is: better than google. c’mon google! you are sabotaging yourself! at this point i was feeling like this was just going to be one big ‘fail epic.’

bing is: google. now thats just confusing! i am slowly losing all my faith in google. it was, by far, my very favorite.  but at this point in my “research” i was feeling unsure. so i did the only thing i could.

i yahoo-ed:

google is: better than yahoo. well, this was reassuring. they seem to be having an argument, but a cute one. like a nauseatingly adorable couple. “you’re the best” “no you’re the best” “no you’re the best!” its sickening.

yahoo is: stupid. i have to agree with this. for saying that google is better than it, and for admitting that it is, indeed, unintelligent.

bing is: *cricket chirping* yahoo had no suggestions for me.  apparently, bing is not yet on yahoos radar.  yet again proving the aforementioned statement that “yahoo is stupid.” to be a successful anything, you have to keep an eye on the competition. i remain unimpressed with these results. i feel betrayed.

i bing:

google is: the best. i used to think so too.  you do not know the truth, you poor little youngster.

yahoo is: undefined.  i do not understand.  but it amused me, because as i was taking notes i was abbreviating the names with letters. so on my little piece of paper it says “y is undefined.” thats clever. like bing knew what i was doing, and was making a joke. which is confusing, because isnt google the one that is supposed to be watching me?

bing is: a stupid name. i could not agree more.  i was under the impression that it stood for “because its not google.”  cracking a joke at how lame it is. but now i see the truth.

the truth is that there are no secret messages hidden here.  no search engine is superior to another.  im very sorry i had to crush your dreams. (mine have been ruthlessly smashed also) but this is science.

keep searching

r.

I just created a gay Greek god named spark. He is the god of glam.

e.

theres this thing people talk about all the time. they call it Love. and i can’t quite grasp what it is. every time i think i get it, something happens that completly throws me off. Love. i get the feeling that it’s one of those thing that “you’ll understand when you’re older.” but that phrase ticks me off just as much now as it did when i was seven. i guess i’m just gonna have to wait and see. time will tell all. r.

I totally agree. When did musicians decide to start sounding like crap? The other day I realized one thing that has a huge affect on the sound. The drums. I’ve noticed that drummers take too much freedom now. If you listen to boys like girls (new album), John is going insane and not necessarily in a good way. Drummers don’t stick to the music like they used to. But if you go listen to Fall Out Boy or Muse the drums follow the guitar and bass and act like a blender between the two. Like there can be a little bit of freedom but going out of control just makes it sound like shit. And yes if you are a singer you should be able to sing. And blg’s new album love drunk, I can’t decide if I love it or hate it. They try and go for the real rock n’roll sound with the screeching guitars(which I like) but then they have a whole pop sound to them. You can’t mix the two they are total opposites and sound pretty bad together. That is a band that I think has sold out. I love them and will continue to but really. Listen to me you and my medication or even the great escape and then go listen to love drunk or chemicals collide and to you will see what I mean. Martin doesn’t even sound like himself on the new album. Sorry I didn’t mean to turn this into a blg bash post but I think they really represent today’s mainstream music and how it is devolving.

hello internet. we need to have a little talk. about music. more specifically, BAD music. because there is a lot of it out there. i’m gonna try not to point any fingers *coughcoughjustinbeibercoughcough* s’cuse me. it makes me sad too see what people call music these days. sometimes im listening to z100 (thumbs down) and go “this isnt music, its some dude yelling obscenities to a crappy beat.” now, dont get me wrong sometimes that autotuned synthey stuff is what u need.

but it’s always a little eye openig when i’m listening to some 3oh!3 and then put on the first all american rejects album. something so beautiful it hurts. The music industry is going downhill fast.  everything is autotuned. which confuses me, because if u cant sing well and in tune, WHY ARE YOU A SINGER? c’mon people. it isnt rocket science!

also, all these bands with so many people! dont get me wrong, i love forever the sickest kids! all six of them. but theres something so impressive to me about bands like Blink-182 or Green Day who can make awesome music with three guys. so much more skill involved.

Then theres the way we listen to the music.  little tiny earbuds??? its ridiculous!! if the music is going straight to your ears at least have some good headphones.  you have to be able to HEAR the music! Whos idea were CDs anyway?? we need to get back to the days of four track records.  I happen to know someone with a record player and the sound you get from that thing is awesome!

so the music industry has some serious cleaning up to do. side note: OneRepublic gets 4 thumbs up. (4 out of 5)

rock on.

r.

they just called to say that school is canceled tomorrow!!!!!!!!! yay. now lets see if we get any actual snow unlike over the weekend. i hope we get like a billion feet. #wolfinthewood

e.

ps. long live the car crash hearts. believers never die.

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